Monday, January 30, 2006

no words right now

Randy passed away last night. I am alternately numb and hysterical. Please excuse me while I take a few days off from this. From having to tell people what happened. From agreeing that he was much too young and undeserving of this. However, I would really like to write something nice and appropriate to memorialize my dear friend before getting on that long scary road to healing.

13 comments:

Jackie said...

so sorry for your loss

Grandmother said...

Dearest Natalie; I am so sorry. I felt as if I knew him through you. Your wonderful post and description of him brought him alive to many people. You were truly blessed, as was he to have known and loved one another. We do not understand why someone so young and vibrant is suddenly taken from us, but have consolation in the knowledge that you and he shared such a special bond. Love Grandmother

magnetbabe said...

Thank you both so much. It means a lot to me.

leftygrrrl said...

Cancer is by far the worst thing I have ever seen a person experience. I wish more people were spared from this horrific experience. Try to find some piece, Natalie. I'll be thinking good thoughts.

leftygrrrl said...

I meant 'peace' as in 'peace and quiet'. Not 'piece' as in 'piece of ass.' Sorry. Comic relief, anyone?

magnetbabe said...

lefty-
I agree. It is just horrific. I do feel some peace knowing he went relatively quickly and without much pain. As for a piece, I have one. His name is Dean ;) Thanks for the giggle.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there and know that you are loved and that he will be missed, even by those who didn't know him well (he always tried to find ways to get me to smile).

I'm around if you need anything.

gabrielle said...

Dear Natalie,
I am so sorry for your loss. There are no words but sometimes that is all we have.I am happy for the friendship that you shared with Randy and that he was spared protracted suffering. May the love that you shared bring you comfort and may time bring you peace. Take good care and know that we are here for you.

Scott said...

Natalie,

I can't say anything that hasn't already been said, but I hope you are ok. I lost my mom to cancer, and your story reminds me of the time. She went into remission, and my mind gladly accepted the fact that she was ok. But when it came back it was fast and furious, leaving us all a little stunned. I look back and wish I would have taken advantage of that little bit of time we were given. I'm just glad for you that you spent your time with him and let him know how much you cared.

mr. schprock said...

I am very sorry. I look forward to when you feel ready to express what you need to express.

minnesotablue said...

Natalie: Thinking about you

dancingo4 said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your gang and Randy's family. Like others mentioned, I feel as if I knew him and was disturbed as the news started taking a turn for the worst. Your amazing writing skills and postings spread the story about Randy and his amazing and short life. Thank you for sharing that with us and I think I can say without ever meeting him, that the world was a better place with Randy in it.
Sending you a big hug from Mike and I.
Love you lots and thinking of you at these hard times.

magnetbabe said...

Thank you all so very very much for giving me strength to get through this hard time. I have the best, most caring blog friends a girl could ask for.